How tough a life is in India for a single girl. I can feel it right now in my life. I understand every bit of it now. One female has to go through lotssa struggle in this bullshit societies of India, specially northern part of India. I can sense it when I am alive. I had no interest in life till this moment. But I am getting a feel her life would be more measurable without me than with me. I need to live for her and the upcoming life.
For whatever happened, I know if I am not there then no one would be with her. She needs moral support and guys stop complaining her. She has given everything for her family. She did not enjoy even a day after marriage, she was always with Papa. Papa is so special to her that at times she ignored me. I dont mind for it as after all its her father. I know she was a bit selfish, may be for a moment, when it came to me and life. But she never wanted to hurt anyone, she waited for all these years with a lot of pain in her heart. I remember the days when she used to cry to settle things around. She in fact many a times called Avi crying for the situation. But would then sooth down worrying about Sudha and Sandhya. Who else better know or remember the situation then me. She loved me but she loved more her Papa. She wanted to leave things and go to her Papa, she did not do this to save me and she did not want to leave me. After all love is important than anything else in this world. This bullshit UP society does not have any place for good hearts. So ruthless and rude it is. It just knows to be happy with few stubborn moron believes and useless customs. Where people are more worried about the society than the own family members.
Her intentions were never wrong or improper. She was always behind me to take care of her lil sisters. Always worried and bothered for them she could not take her own life seriously ever. Anything she tried just failed, her luck was not with her. Even sticking to me had a reason behind, she thought we together will always take care of her family. Even when struggling for own life settlement, she was worried about her sister's training. And that is what always inspired me. She did her job but people are not understanding her. She needs my moral support now. I have to live for that. She needs some luck for sometime. Hey God please help her now. I know one needs to put his effort to get some results but it is also said that you need some luck to overcome hurdles.
Health is something which is not in anyone's control. But strangely everyone puts some excuse and tends to forget own part of it. You can not really put it on anyone. This is not really fair and unacceptable.
Hey God I and her need some luck in this cruel world. We have seen enough in this small life. We need you... Apart from responsibilities everything else we have tried (at least) to fulfil. Why God is not there with the good people. I am in sad thoughts. There was a time last few years I had lost all anger but its all coming in now. There is no space for anger but I do not know from where it is coming in.
I am not getting any kind of support. What you need is some moral support. Sadly I dont have a sibling. I loved her siblings a lot and may be more than Santu at times. Only because the fear was there, what would happen to them in case Papa takes any negative step. She was always worried for her sisters and loved them till bottom of her heart. She wanted Sudha in best place and she wanted Sandhya to become an engineer. She was always behind me to be in touch with Sandhya till she gets a job. I have not seen anyone caring for own sisters like this. I think they are just hating her for no reasons. It was destiny.... If that is the reason why did Sandhya come first time for her trainings? I think things are just getting messed up here.
Her bro is a bro? After requesting so many times also he just called Papa and exaggerated the situation. He could have handled the situation. There is unity in the family. When it comes to issues and problems there is blame game for sure. Blaming each other for no reason. Rather the whole family should be united and should handle the situation. She did every possible thing which a daughter should do. She did not run away. She spoke to her mother. Even her mother suggested once to get registered. May be her mom also thought I am the right guy for her. Then why this hypocrisy? When Sandhya was not supposed to come, she said let her go and it is OK.
Everyone is so angry in nature that I am getting suffocated. My anger is an emotional anger. But these guys shout and try to get away from any hurdle in life. I have always learnt to handle situations in life together.
When she came first time for training, Di was all good. She was there for her to follow. Now what went wrong to hate her so much? She is that dedicated that she was ready to drop her first kid to take care of Papa. Guys understand her pain.
I have broken all the rules for betterment of the family. But feels bad to hear that this not own place and this is outsider place.
Feels bad that she is not keeping well, but Sandy...
For whatever happened, I know if I am not there then no one would be with her. She needs moral support and guys stop complaining her. She has given everything for her family. She did not enjoy even a day after marriage, she was always with Papa. Papa is so special to her that at times she ignored me. I dont mind for it as after all its her father. I know she was a bit selfish, may be for a moment, when it came to me and life. But she never wanted to hurt anyone, she waited for all these years with a lot of pain in her heart. I remember the days when she used to cry to settle things around. She in fact many a times called Avi crying for the situation. But would then sooth down worrying about Sudha and Sandhya. Who else better know or remember the situation then me. She loved me but she loved more her Papa. She wanted to leave things and go to her Papa, she did not do this to save me and she did not want to leave me. After all love is important than anything else in this world. This bullshit UP society does not have any place for good hearts. So ruthless and rude it is. It just knows to be happy with few stubborn moron believes and useless customs. Where people are more worried about the society than the own family members.
Her intentions were never wrong or improper. She was always behind me to take care of her lil sisters. Always worried and bothered for them she could not take her own life seriously ever. Anything she tried just failed, her luck was not with her. Even sticking to me had a reason behind, she thought we together will always take care of her family. Even when struggling for own life settlement, she was worried about her sister's training. And that is what always inspired me. She did her job but people are not understanding her. She needs my moral support now. I have to live for that. She needs some luck for sometime. Hey God please help her now. I know one needs to put his effort to get some results but it is also said that you need some luck to overcome hurdles.
Health is something which is not in anyone's control. But strangely everyone puts some excuse and tends to forget own part of it. You can not really put it on anyone. This is not really fair and unacceptable.
Hey God I and her need some luck in this cruel world. We have seen enough in this small life. We need you... Apart from responsibilities everything else we have tried (at least) to fulfil. Why God is not there with the good people. I am in sad thoughts. There was a time last few years I had lost all anger but its all coming in now. There is no space for anger but I do not know from where it is coming in.
I am not getting any kind of support. What you need is some moral support. Sadly I dont have a sibling. I loved her siblings a lot and may be more than Santu at times. Only because the fear was there, what would happen to them in case Papa takes any negative step. She was always worried for her sisters and loved them till bottom of her heart. She wanted Sudha in best place and she wanted Sandhya to become an engineer. She was always behind me to be in touch with Sandhya till she gets a job. I have not seen anyone caring for own sisters like this. I think they are just hating her for no reasons. It was destiny.... If that is the reason why did Sandhya come first time for her trainings? I think things are just getting messed up here.
Her bro is a bro? After requesting so many times also he just called Papa and exaggerated the situation. He could have handled the situation. There is unity in the family. When it comes to issues and problems there is blame game for sure. Blaming each other for no reason. Rather the whole family should be united and should handle the situation. She did every possible thing which a daughter should do. She did not run away. She spoke to her mother. Even her mother suggested once to get registered. May be her mom also thought I am the right guy for her. Then why this hypocrisy? When Sandhya was not supposed to come, she said let her go and it is OK.
Everyone is so angry in nature that I am getting suffocated. My anger is an emotional anger. But these guys shout and try to get away from any hurdle in life. I have always learnt to handle situations in life together.
When she came first time for training, Di was all good. She was there for her to follow. Now what went wrong to hate her so much? She is that dedicated that she was ready to drop her first kid to take care of Papa. Guys understand her pain.
I have broken all the rules for betterment of the family. But feels bad to hear that this not own place and this is outsider place.
Feels bad that she is not keeping well, but Sandy...
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